My father and I met a woman customer at the local post office, back when we were still living in Munich. She had a dog with her, and was berating the dog. I remember it ducking away in pain and looking up with it’s sad dog eyes. It was a German shepherd. Maybe it had […]
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The woman I love is the greatest teacher to me. She withdraws from me. I start obsessing about how to “win her”, how to “convince her to build a relationship with me.” Yes, we’re kind of stuck in the “friends or more?” stage. I’m getting mixed signals from her, and am confused. I had been
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The purpose of this process (emotional processing tool) is to be able to handle intense emotions & emotionally upsetting processes on your own in a constructive way. To identify the actual needs at the bottom of your emotions, and to remove pain from stories you tell yourself about this. I’ve prepared a run-down through the
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Part of my work with the self-defeating behavior (SDB) about chasing emotionally unavailable women and rejecting the women who are interested in me. It’s important to distill the learnings from the work into sentences which are easy to stick into your mind, therefore my wrong (life-taking) and right (life-giving) conclusions are listed below. They key
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I am currently doing the “Perfectionism Trauma” course with the wonderful Thais Gibson. She mentions several dysfunctional strategies in there, for example “never enough” components (“I’m never going to be thin enough / big enough / rich enough / clever enough / … “, no matter how much energy I put into.) On the other
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For behaving in ways which are not well-adjusted to this world and self-damaging, we pay prices. It is important to visualize such prices. Chasing emotionally unavailable women (and exclusively focusing on them, while pushing available women away) is a self-defeating behavior. I have analyzed the prices I keep paying to keep my behavior up today.
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I just had this thought: Maybe I keep giving to women who can’t receive, because there are built-in boundaries. If I was to give to a person who is able to receive, then possibly I might exhaust myself with giving much more than I can – there would not be any boundary. So I’ve chosen
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I’ve stumbled across a great blog about horses yesterday: Pferdeflüsterei (in German). It came at a great point in my life, reminding me about some fundamental truths of humanity & compassion. I think a lot of the things about a relationship with a horse (for example being fair, not putting it under pressure, understanding it’s
Relationships exist for a reason. They are a form of mutual support, of being able to weather the storms of life better together. As such they need to meet the needs of the individuals in the relationship – they need to meet the needs better, than each individual in the relationship would be able to
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For programmers, there is a paradigm which says “if it quacks like a duck, walks like a duck, then treat it as a duck”. Similarly, a lover must treat you in a certain way to be recognizable as a lover. This includes wanting to spend time with you, and engaging with you. If they don’t
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